A Desire Deferred

…yeah.

I’ve realized that what happened in February to this blog is still affecting me on some level.

Some of it is just residual sadness/frustration that it all happened to begin with – just losing almost a decade’s worth of work.  Some of it has to do with references – like, I’ll want to draw a specific character, but then I remember, oh yeah.  That post went kerblooey with the rest of the site.  I’m still working on pulling everything back together, but it’s taking a while.

Couple that with being full-time and losing energy (and a dash of anxiety for the future, now that I think about it), and it’s just hard to want to draw at all.

And I’m not super happy about that it.  Like, looking back over this year and seeing how little I’ve drawn is downright depressing.

I went from posting 3 times a week to 8-10 drawings a month to maybe 3 comics a month.  It feels wrong, somehow.  Wrong and annoying and grrr.

I don’t know.  Still trying to pull everything together.  But there will be new stuff out, and I want to get back to being more productive.  But I guess we’ll have to see…