I swear, I will get back to Drawtober eventually. I just needed to get this out of my head.
Long story short: I got the job.
Starting the week after next, I will be a full-time library circulation aide at a different branch in the system.
And I have a lot of feelings about it.
There’s been this undercurrent of sadness through it all, mostly at leaving the place I’ve been working at for 7 years. I will definitely miss the branch, my coworkers, even the patrons (some of them). It feels bittersweet, you know?
Then there’s the NERVES. I’m heading off to a new place with new people, and I have zero idea how it’s going to turn out. It’s been a while since I’ve been to this particular library, so it’s foreign territory. And I hope I made the right choice. Also, there’s gonna be the transition from part-time to full-time that’s got me super anxious. Like, am I going to be able to handle it? I’m going to be losing a lot of free time – will I still have time to do things like draw? What am I getting myself into???
Also feeling a bit of guilt. I feel like I’m leaving my library in a lurch, now that it’s going be short-staffed. Who knows how long it’s gonna take to fill those positions?
On top of everything, though, is the STRESS. I am trying to make sure I get everything done that I need to get done before I head out, and I don’t have a lot of time to do it. It’s driving me a bit crazy at the moment. I’m glad I don’t have to take work home with me, but oh my GOSH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
So, that’s how I’ve been – all these emotions just mixed together.
There is this little silver thread, shining through it all: excitement. It’s getting a bit crowded out, but it’s there. This could be fun, right? A new place to show my stuff at, make my mark, and be the best library aide I can be. Plus, I will be doing the same thing I’m doing now (just more hours), so it’s not like I can’t do the job. I’m not starting from zero here. I just need to settle into the branch.
Phew. That’s a lot of emoting going on. But it’s all happening. And I do plan to keep drawing through it all, even with the longer hours/less time.
So – here’s to the new job, and to my emotions (hopefully) settling down after a certain point.
The next post will be a Drawtober post. Promise.
…oh god, I’m gonna sweat so bad.
YOU CAN DO IT, DREW! Obviously, they saw much in you that is good, and we, your fans, think you will rise to the occasion splendidly.
Drew, I totally agree with Krystie. I KNOW you will do a good job and be an asset to your new library. I especially like your comment about being the best library aide you can be. That is a great attitude and one the new librarian you will be working for will appreciate. She/he is lucky to have you! Once you get to know your co-workers, it will be fun. Keep us posted. I admire so much how well you express your feelings. I for one, would not be able to do it so well.